My life after five years from now

I am an adolescent who have just realised high school and has started attending college. My academic progress is satisfactory and I am getting good grades. By nature I whitethorn be considered a shallow somebody who retorts things rather lightly. I wearyt go much deeper into whatsoever problem to really treat it. Although, I am gregarious and fun loving, basically I am an introvert and I keep my personal conduct sheltered as I dont distribute people into authority easily. I have a weak personality and lack self confidence. To camouflage this, I always try to be over friendly and chatty with my friends.But deep down, I dont trust my friends and neer share my innermost thoughts with them. If things dont work out consort to my expectations, I become a recluse, and refuse to discuss it with anyone. My outlook is bourgeois and can not call for any open show of bosom easily. Fear of the unknown, fear of failure has totally blinded my vision and blockade my rational thinkin g capacity. Although I am well aware of my drawbacks, I am unable to change for the better. Currently my vision about life is blurred by my short sightedness and lack of wisdom and experience.I would like to change these negative attributes and enhance my personality. The vision of my life volt years from now is a complete transformation of my personality. Ill accept my friends as they are and respect them as an individual. Ill take back roughly of my friends into confidence and share my problems and successes with them. Ill always listen to their point of expectation before taking any difficult decision. Ill exuviate my bearish and gloomy attitude and encounter any problem with a imperative mind.Ill acknowledge my fear, will analyse it and make a cognizant effort to eliminate it from my system, in a slow but firm way. This negative personality trait affected me greatly and prevented me from taking sound kind of decisions at the right moment. Ill overcome fear with resta te determination and become a person with an independent personality, who can take right kind of decision at the right moment, and can dream, guess and act towards realising his cherished goal.Career-wise I have not thought of any particular profession which I would like to pursue within the stemma of next five years. While Ill concentrate on my studies to envision good grades, on spare times I would do rum jobs to earn some extra money.Since travelling excites me a lot, I would take up part time job in travel agencies such as tourist guide or interpreter which will take me to exotic tourist places. While accompanying the tourists, Ill visit scenic islands, see exotic landscapes of steep mountains, and lush green vegetations. Sometimes Ill lie down in solitude on a flaxen beach, and gaze at the blue azure sky. Associating with nature will feed in me a clear perspective on life and what it holds. Ill shed my superficial self and emerge a more genuine person who will appreciat e anything from beauty of nature to the beauty of a girlfriend from aesthetic sense. This will help me to get into a permanent relationship, which money box now is eluding me.I want to confidently go in the direction of my goal of transforming my personality within five years from now. only if time will tell how far Ill be roaring in changing my negative personality traits and become a person who is honest with himself and with others and have emotional strength, integrity of character, clarity of mind and confidence in others. If I fit the personality mentioned above within five years from now, my goal of personal transition will become a reality.